A little bit personal...

For any of you that have ever been the cause of a Parent/Teacher conference, it's always terrifying...but today, I'm going to be on the other side of things. I'm going to my first Parent/Teacher conference that's not about me!

It's equally as terrifying in my mind though because I've never been "great" at being an "adult"...so this should definitely be interesting...

Luckily, it's just Myles' conference. 

Look at that cute little monkey :)

There won't be much to it I'm assuming, but who knows, I could be totally wrong. Should I bring a note pad? I have ADD, should I record the conversation? I KNOW I shouldn't be this nervous, but for someone with pretty severe anxiety when it comes to people in charge, it comes as a challenge.

Even when I was younger, if the person that was in charge got on to me (or even if they were just talking to me) my brain would melt and I would have a meltdown to the point of tears. It was terrible because it happened all the way through college and I would break down into tears after classes with my teacher, even if I was doing amazing in their class.

It even happens now when it comes to my job. I have panic attacks when I'm getting ready to call my boss and tell him I didn't hit the goal for calls that day, or if something came up and I had to leave the house, I cry just thinking about the fact that I have to tell him I missed an hour of calls.

A lot of people don't understand it and I can't make them understand, I don't know if it's a personality thing or maybe there's something in my brain that just can't handle that little bit of stress. It's really frustrating, especially when I get so upset that I forget to do things. I forget to file reports or call back the people that I have scheduled to call. 

When that happens and I remember later, I get mad at myself and break myself down. No one normal does this. If you had a normal brain, this wouldn't happen. Why in the world would anyone want to interact with someone who can't hold a conversation without looking away. You're not supposed to cry when you get a critique, you're supposed to take it and use it...

Dealing with ADD and anxiety, going on and off medication for them, it's not easy. I know there are many people out there that think ADD isn't as serious as people make it out to be, and some times there are different cases, but if you think you have ADD or your child has ADD, please take them to the Doctor at least to be tested. It could help tremendously in school and social life.

Be watchful if they are given medication for ADD or ADHD. There are different side effects with each medication but I went through a period where I only wanted to be in my room. I didn't talk to my friends, I barely talked to my family and I almost never ate. I went a month with this behavior before I was switched to a different medication that actually worked for me. I was finally able to focus when teachers were talking, I was doing better in classes that I was completely failing, I was getting my friends back and gaining new ones.

Unfortunately, I'm not on that medication any more. I can still make friends pretty easily but sometimes it's hard to focus and my anxiety gets pretty bad sometimes. I think these two coincide and maybe some day I can find a way to combat both things. But as for now, I'm still adjusting.

If you have any more questions for me about my experience with ADD or anxiety, you can ask me in the comments below or you can message me on Facebook.

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On a lighter note, I did get my hair chopped off last night and so far, I love it. It's nice to be able to run my fingers through it. :)

Tell me what you guys think in the comments below!

I hope you guys have a wonderful day and I'll see you guys tomorrow :)